highlights include:
- starting my full time job
- participating in the anti-fashion show
- joining tara in her studio
- the birth of my friend's daughter, brenna
- an expected trip to STL (circumstances were crappy though)
- spending my mom's birthday at home with my whole family
- setting up my very own website (more on that to come)
- scott joining me for christmas in missouri
- adopting luna
- unsuccessful sales all around
- tara leaving the studio
- car trouble, again
- feelings of inadequacy and unimportance
- the heartbreak of unexpectedly losing a pet
the most recent thing to happen on either lists is the one i'm having the hardest time dealing with. my new baby luna, which you met just a few weeks ago, joined scott, the dog and i in missouri for christmas. we decided to bring her because she was so tiny and fragile and skinny. we were feeding her tuna and chicken every few hours to try to help her gain weight to cover the bones that painfully stuck out everywhere. the day after christmas we returned home from running errands to find her lying funny on the ground. we later discovered after taking her to the vet, that her neck had been broken and she was paralyzed and couldn't be fixed. wow this is hard to type! the hardest part to deal with isn't really her death, as we knew she was fragile and likely sick. it's the fact that our dog is responsible.
i'm having a particularly hard time being around him. i know it was an accident and he would never mean to hurt a kitty, but he did. he didn't just hurt her, he killed her. i find myself getting very angry over things that would normally just be an annoyance. i freak out when he goes near the other cats and if he does something wrong i find myself losing my temper to a much higher degree than normal. i know this will pass with time, it's only been 6 days, but it sure was one hell of shitty way to end the year. i hope to go into this year with less hatred toward my dog, and high hopes for many more highlights and much fewer hiccups.
sorry for the debby downer post, but as i just introduced you to my darling luna, i wanted you to know the full story.
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